It Keeps You Running

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All of my friends in the writing department at “work” were laid off today. I sit here now and try to understand why companies need to tighten to their belts at this time, and well, that’s really it; I’m still just sitting here trying to comprehend it. Alas, today is not my day to "get it" at all, as it would appear my heart is doing more of the reasoning rather than my brain.

It’s odd, but I still felt like I had a "job" when all my friends did. In a way, I feel like I got laid off again today. As I said in a previous blog, I went back to “work” to run, have lunch with the “girls,” and even “rented” an empty cube there for a couple of hours on a few afternoons, which made me still feel connected. It was not so much to the job, but to those absolutely lovely people. These were the people who welcomed me back with open arms whenever I visited, the people who sent me job leads, and the people who I grew to love like a family. Before today, even if I wasn’t working with them, I could still be around them at "work." But today, that too is now a thing of the past.

We are all running the Cigna 5K tonight as the company’s team. Tonight, some of us are not officially part of the company anymore; however, I would like to think now, the company aside, that we have formed an even better team in our hearts that no layoff can ever put asunder.

A few weeks ago, I had wanted to run even faster than last year; yes, I wanted to be in the top ten in the old lady division, but now running fast has no significance for me. So, tonight, I choose to run with my friends, who run at a slower pace than me, because today and most of the time, running slow with your friends is so much more important than running fast by yourself. <3