Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Life Gets in the Way of Blog

1. Stressful day at work.

2. Left work at 2pm (when I really should have stayed there until 2am) to pick up Iz at the Manchester, NH airport.



3. Brought Iz to Toys R’ Us to get her the promised Zhu Zhu pet (read “Yes, another fad!”), which was something to encourage her (oh, okay, read “bribe”) to fly back from Philly all by herself.



4. Took Iz to McDonald’s.

5. Went grocery shopping.

6. Drove home.

7. Fed pets.

8. Put away groceries.

9. Made Iz’s lunch for camp.

10. Cleaned litter boxes.

11. Threw in a load of laundry.

12. Climbed two flights of stairs with a huge TBF (To Be Folded) basket of laundry.



(And, yes, I didn't make the bed today. You don't have to make the bed when you're by yourself; I'm sure there's a memo about that somewhere on the Internet! And, didn't you all get it?!)

13. Changed the sheets on Iz’s bed due to coughed-up hairball by a resident hairball (read “Liam”).



I know it's gross; however, the sight of a furball is no more repulsive to me than the sight of lima beans. Let's remember: One's man furball is another man's lima bean!

14. Changed the sheets on Nathan’s bed once I got the text message “I r in America!” and then he informed that he was headed to my house (read “avoiding Quinn and the evitable report card discussion”).

15. After 15-minutes of needless bargaining (me) and complaining (Iz), I coaxed Iz into a bubble bath.



It always amazes me that the 15-minutes of bargaining/complaining leads to 30-minutes of fun in the tub with me having to drag her out of it!

16. Took Monty out to hurry up (read "pee").

17. Began to hear voices.

18. I thought it was my neighbors or perhaps the "little people" that live under my porch, who are devoted followers of Princess Janina.

But, noooooooo, it was just Brenda and Tom both saying today, "Welcome back to Motherhood!"

19. Time to write a blog.

19. Time for a glass of wine!

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

You're Not Going to?!?!?



I have a reputation; worst of all, it’s a reputation I’ve earned at work. Okay, it’s not that kind of reputation; it’s a reputation for being an extreme runner or a runner who goes to extremes. Well, when I figure it out, I’ll let you know; since it's a reputation, it must be written on a bathroom wall somewhere at work.

As most of my Northeast readers know, it was again hot as Hades today. It was even worse than yesterday, and so bad that I had to tell my cat, Thunderbolt, what to do this morning. As most of you know, it’s pretty difficult to tell a cat what to do, but today, I said, “No, Thunderbolt. You’re not going outside today!”

He listened and he processed my words. Well, he was processing my words or contemplating using the litter box just then. I couldn’t be sure; however, he sauntered off toward the kitchen, which was on the way to the litter box in the basement, twitched his tail, and then said, “Well, you shouldn’t run outside today either!”

Anyway, since starting my new-old job, cycling has become a weekend-only endeavor for me. Good thing, too, because I think I used up two of my nine cycling lives yesterday. When at work, I run at lunchtime with my friends, Tom and Amrit.

When my job was just old (when I was employed the first time by my company) and not new-old, there was a larger group of us that would run every day. I’d send the “running” email, which was just that; it asked, “Running?!?!?!” Why the excessive use of question marks and exclamation points?

They don’t have an article about this in Runner’s World magazine. Believe me, I know this because I wrote this article and submitted it several times; however, for some reason, they never responded to me. Anyway, if truth be told and running secrets were divulged, you’d know that punctuation can be highly motivational when it comes to running.

Let’s compare in side-by-side (not really, but who cares, because I want to sound like a commercial!) sample emails.

"Running?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?"

versus

Anyone want to think about maybe going for a short plod around the parking lot sometime today if the cafeteria is not serving tacos for lunch…

Which one wants to make you jump out of your office chair, grab your sneakers, and run a brisk 5K? As you can see, the question mark-exclamation combination always reigns supreme over the ellipsis. I rest my case, and you don’t know what you’re missing Runner’s World!

Of course, I ran every day when my job was old, and there were rumors swirling around the running group when everyone wasn’t thinking about tacos that 1) I might be a bit crazy for running every day 2) I’d be all the wiser for stretching (bah, humbug!), and 3) I could be Polish royalty (Princess Janina) given my penchant for tiaras and my inclination toward pink; pink is the color of the Polish flag; okay, in my Poland, the flag is pink with Hello Kitty even when it’s red with some fierce bird on it!

When I was sitting at my desk this morning, my friend, Lisa, passed by on her way to stock the refrigerator in the kitchen. We discussed weekend events, which turned out weren’t too exciting for either of us. Then Lisa said, “You’re not going to run outside today, are you?”

I had to laugh. Princess Janina was the non-stretching daily runner who was now known to risk heat stroke by running outside. I told Lisa that I had already given in; I hadn’t relinquished my title, my tiara, or started to stretch or run every other day. I told her I had already decided to run at the gym.

After Lisa left, I began to contemplate work when I wasn’t thinking of my coronation party once Poland realized that they needed me back, albeit to rule over a track team comprised of 8-year-olds. I glanced at my phone and saw it blinking “Text message! Text message!” I read the message from one of my friends; it said, “I hope you don’t run today; it’s just too hot!”

I wrote back that I was going to be sensible about the heat and go to the gym. As far as everything else went, I would continue on in Princess Janina fashion. Beside, I knew Thunderbolt was right; and if you can’t trust a cat, who can you trust?

When it was close to noon, I closed my Internet browser; I sent my Punctuation as a Running Motivator article to Runner’s World again, because perhaps the 103rd time was the charm. I gathered my running things and headed down to the locker room to change. When I arrived, I was greeted by a fellow exercise enthusiast, who I didn't know that well but had exchanged chit-chat with two or three times since I had been back.

She gave me a big smile and said, “Hi.” I said, “Hi.” And within a minute she asked, “You’re not going to running outside, are you?”

Did I always give off this “Crazy woman that will run in any kind of weather” vibe or was it just today? When one person tells you something about yourself, you say, “Well, that’s only one opinion;” however, when three people question your running sanity, it’s time to take heed. I laughed and answered sweetly, “Why no! You’d have to be crazy to think you’re a Polish princess and to run outside on a day like this.”

So, I headed off to the gym. I ran my 30 minutes and headed back to work. As I drove over to the building from the gym, I looked at my shirt; I was drenched. For a moment, I thought, “Given all this sweat, I should have just run outside today!” but no one would respect a Polish princess who was stupid enough to get heat stroke!

When I entered the reception area, Barbara was at the desk. She looked at me funny. It was not a look that said I was a crazy woman who thought I was a Polish princess; it was a look that said I was a totally pathetic sweaty mess.

I felt compelled to say something since I was now on the defensive about my well-known tendency to run when it was too hot outside. I said to Barbara, “And, do you know that I didn’t even run outside today!” She said, “Really? Because you still look pretty bad!” When I become the Princess of Poland, I will make sure that Barbara drives a Buick Roadmaster for a while instead of one of those cute little clown cars!

I showered and then was back at my desk googling “Pink coronation invitations.” Obviously, I had a reputation; however, just when you think it’s one you’re stuck with, it all can all change in an instant. A lovely blonde woman can pop her head in your office and erase “For a crazy running time, call Jean” from the bathroom wall.

She said in a lovely Southern accent, “I just wanted to tell you that dress you’re wearing is so cute. Is it a Lily?” I thought, “Wow, that’s a very good guess.” I then answered, “No. It’s not. It is a vintage dress though; most of the dresses I wear are vintage.”

She introduced herself and said, “I can’t believe they didn’t introduce you around.” She was new and in Revenue; I was new-old, wearing new-old clothes, and in Documentation. I knew I was a tad stubborn when it came to running; however, I loved the fact that when she walked out of my cube she said, “You always look so nice,” thus giving me a new reputation far more fitting for a princess!

No. I didn’t tell her that I was a Polish princess. I didn't want that reputation, because then everyone at work would want to come to my coronation party. And, instead, Princess Janina says, "Let them eat tacos in the cafeteria!"

Monday, July 5, 2010

Fill Her Up!



Today, I ran out of gas, and then I subsequently got filled up. I didn’t run out of gas literally. I went out for a bike ride, and I remembered everything except for my water bottles, which wouldn’t have been too bad had it not been hot as Hades here today.

Why didn’t I turn around and go back and get my water bottles? By the time I realized I was without them, I was 30 minutes into my ride. I then thought, “Aw, I’ll tough it out,” and I did.

Believe me, it could have been worse, because on my 25-mile ride, I was almost killed twice; first, a woman blew through a stop sign and almost hit me. When I saw her pulling out, I shouted, “Hey!” for lack of anything better to say like “You idiot, you’re going to kill me!” After what seemed like 5 hours and not five seconds, she stopped her Honda Element; and, if I get hit and maimed by any car, I so want it to be a late 80s or early 90s red Alfa Romeo Spider convertible not a Honda Element!

After my life flashed before a Japanese and not a notoriously unreliable Italian car, I made it onto the rail trail. The traffic on the trail was light considering it was a holiday. But, remember, morons never take a holiday!

As I was riding down the trail in my lane, I saw a man approaching me, who was totally oblivious to oncoming traffic and riding in my lane. About 20 feet before he and I would have a head-on collision, in which I would break my arm and subsequently lose my job, I shouted, “Hello?!?!?!” There’s driving and texting, and then there’s riding and making a movie.

Okay, I know I made a movie on my bike once upon a time ago; however, I filmed it when I was sure no one else was around. This guy was filming his wife and child in the right lane while biking in the left lane, again, my lane. I never speak up; today, was different, and I shouted, “Moron!” after he quickly pulled into the right lane nearly missing me at T-minus 5 feet!

I made it up to Nashua (12.5 miles), turned around, and then I headed back. I was a bit thirsty then. But, I had only begun to think about hijacking a Poland Springs truck; at least, I hadn’t thought about knocking down a fellow cyclist and stealing his/her water bottle.

When I was about 7 miles from home, fellow cyclists’ water bottles were beginning to look very appealing. Everyone looked like an easy mark to me. As I passed an older couple with binoculars peering out upon a large pond, I thought I could say, “Hey, look at that yellow-bellied sapsucker,” and while they were looking, I could grab their water bottles, and then quickly say as I sped off, “Oh, I’m sorry. That was just a robin!”

Fortunately, good dehydrated sense prevailed, if there was such a thing. When I was 5 miles from home, it was as if I was in the Sahara, and I was beginning to think in mirages. As I rode by a huge algae-covered pond, I thought, “If I pushed away the algae, I bet there’s some good drinking water there!”

When I finally made it home and entered the house, I saw my water bottles sitting there on the counter. They giggled. Am I the only person with animate water bottles?!?!

After I drank about 6 glasses of water, I showered. I knew I had some errands to do, so I made my list. I headed out in the car, and seeing that I was almost on empty, I knew I had to stop for gas on the way to the mall.

I pulled into a small station on Route 40. I rolled down the window, and I got a huge waft of pavement sealer. The attendant walked up to me, and I said, “Ewwww,” and then I quickly said, “Oh, I didn’t mean you!”

Brandon, I saw his name tag, said, “Oh, I know!” I said, “Could you please fill it up with regular?” He asked, “Cash or credit?” though I was hungry at that moment and hoping for “And, would you like fries with that?”

I told him cash, handed him my money, and he put the nozzle into my gas tank. He came back to my window and said, “So, what are you doing today?” I was caught off guard, because I never had anyone make small talk over a gas fill up.

I said, “I’m going to the mall.” He said, “On a day like today?” I said, “Well, I’m going where the air conditioning is, besides I already biked 25 miles in this brutal heat.”

He said, “Wow, 25 miles?” I said, “Yeah. It was hot out there today.” He said, “Do you do anything else? You look like you’re in great shape.”

I had to laugh; I laughed in my head. Brandon was about half my age, and there wasn’t much of me that he could see from his viewpoint, only my thighs peeking out from underneath my denim skirt. He said, “You must do something else too? Do you run?”

I laughed in my head again. I said, “Yes. I run during the week.” He then confessed that while he liked biking, he got bored with it after a while. (Suze, you’re not the only one.)

After my tank was full, he said, “So, what are you going to buy today?” Surprised again and now touched by his friendliness, I said, “Well, I’m just going to look.” If truth be told, I didn’t want to say, “Wrinkle cream, Venus razor blades, and whatever else strikes my fancy at Target.”

He handed me my receipt. I thanked him, and he said, “Enjoy your day.” I said, “Thank you. You too, Brandon.”

Until I stopped for gas, I was having a very alone kind of day. I was pondering, “Now that I had a job, in which direction do I want my life to go now?” I didn’t know; and I was feeling like I was on empty. As I drove off, I thought, “Thanks, Brandon. You just filled me up, even if only temporarily.”

Saturday, July 3, 2010

I'll Go with You



Today was an exciting day; well, yesterday was really an exciting evening making today the exciting day. When I arrived home yesterday, my first paycheck was waiting for me in the mail. I hadn’t been so excited to see a piece of paper with numbers on it since I had gotten an A, probably a one-time occurrence, on a math test in high school; geometry, trigonometry, and pre-calculus kicked my butt always.

Anyway, when I got up this morning, I knew I had to go to the bank. I began to do what I usually do when I have tons of free time; no, it wasn’t get on my bike, though that came later. I made a list of the things I needed to do today.

My list was:

Bank
Key
Cat litter
Orchid

My errand to the bank had two purposes; I needed to deposit my check, and I then I needed to transfer money into Nathan’s account. While Nathan hadn’t run out of money, I wanted to ensure that he could buy Quinn, his Dad, a really good present. Being the good cop parent, I would give Nate my usual “try harder” speech in regard to his report card; Quinn would be much less understanding, so I encouraged Nathan to buy his Dad a really, really nice present to soften the report card blow he would receive from his Dad upon return!

It was a lovely morning, so when one can’t bike, one can enjoy a ride in the car with Coldplay, because at that moment, with the windows down and the tunes blaring, I was in my place. I was so excited. Why? I got paid!

I hadn’t felt this great in ages, and when I got in the line at the bank, I know I was smiling. I felt like I had the first time First National supermarket paid me when I was 16, except I wasn’t looking forward to buying a new Bonnie Bell lip smacker; I was going to pay my mortgage! As the teller deposited my check, I almost gushed to the teller, who was probably half my age, “I just got my first paycheck,” but I decided that I would just say that to myself, over and over, and do a little dance with the mini me inside my head.

When I left the bank, I headed to the veterinarian’s. My pet sitter worked there, and she was going to watch the animals, because Marcia and I were sleeping over Laura’s house tonight; okay, I just felt like I was 16 typing that! Anyway, I liked my vet practice; however, there was one thing that irked me about it.

It wasn’t the prices, the facility or the people. It was this damn sign they had in the entryway of the building. It show three beautifully decorated different treats – cupcakes, whoopee pies, and colorful cookies. Every time I saw it, I thought, “MMmmmmm,” and every time after my stomach grumbled with anticipation, I’d read the small print saying, “Can you believe these are not for you but for your dog? Pooch Barkery, 978, 555-1234” and then my stomach would say, “Ack, pft, ptooey, dog treats!” I, rather my stomach, fell for that sign each time I went there.

After dropping off my key, I headed to the grocery store. If there’s one thing I buy as much as I buy milk, it’s kitty litter and litter box deodorizer; emergency grocery trips in my house are all about milk and kitty litter. Since I was feeling wealthy, I picked up cat treats, too. This morning, I was the Employed Fairy, I sprinkled my good fortunate dust on Nathan and now on the cats.

My last stop was to the florist. My florist, Stella, always had the most beautiful orchids from Thailand. And, I loved orchids, even more than roses, which I found funny, because orchids didn’t have a scent (and I always do), and they were very difficult to maintain as plants (and I killed every house plant I ever owned). But, I had successfully maintained an orchid for over a year now, even getting it to bloom in May.

I perused the case, and I saw the purple orchids I usually purchased; however, when I looked toward the top of the case, I saw the most beautiful large yellow orchid in a vase. Stella said, “Oh, that’s the orchid they use for corsages.” It had three large flowers on its single thick stalk; it was so simple yet said so much in its simple glass vase with a single blue sheer ribbon tied around it.

I said, “How much is that one?” She said, “Aw, I should sell it for $25, but for you, $20.” I always loved the way Stella made sure to tell me that she was giving me the bargain of my life; I said, “Okay. I’ll take it.”

She asked me if I needed a card. I quickly glanced at all the sentiments. I said, “No. I think the orchid says it all.”

When I got home, I left all my things in the car and grabbed my orchid. It was time to sprinkle some more dust. I headed over to Susan’s and knocked on her door.

She opened the door, saw me standing there, and then she opened the screen door. I handed her the orchid. She smiled; see, no card necessary.

I asked how she was doing, and she got teary-eyed and said, “Good,” and then she hesitated and said, “Well, okay. You know, what you said helped me tremendously.” I put a hand on each one of her cheeks, and I kissed her on her left cheek. I said, “Remember, I’m always right next door.” She thanked me, and I went home to sprinkle some more dust.

I greeted Monty, who was snoozed in my herb bed, and I asked, “Wanna go for a walk?” Monty shook his head and said, “What? A walk? Really?” I grabbed a plastic bag, hooked him up to his leash, said, “No barking!” firmly to him, though knowing him he heard, “More barking!,” and we headed outside.

Susan was in her yard setting up chairs for her family gathering. I said, “Monty’s going to water the neighborhood.” Susan put down a chair, thought for a second, and then said, “I’ll go with you.”

I said, “That’d be great!” We walked around the neighborhood chatting about jobs, cats, and everything else that mattered to us this morning. Sometimes you don’t need to talk about it; you just need to feel it.

When we got back, Susan resumed her chair arranging, and I walked back to my house. As I climbed the steps to the front door, I thought that though it gets easier, it’s still always a bit difficult. And, as thankful as Susan was for my words and company, I was just as fortunate, because I realized that I now had a friend who understood my loss and who I knew would always go with me, too.

Friday, July 2, 2010

IYQ



Some weeks events occur in my life, and I think to myself, “Hmm. This reminds me of something.” If I think a bit harder, a quote usually comes to mind. From week-to-week, it seems that my life has a short script that it has chosen to follow; this week, my life had two scripts, and they were, “If you love something, set it free” and “When the Great Cat Goddess closes a door, somewhere she opens a window.”

Yesterday, I had lunch with my former co-workers. Oddly, they were all working elsewhere, and I was now back working where we had all once worked together. It had been an adjustment going back to our old company, especially because the technical writing department had gone from over 10 people when I last worked there to just little old me now.

As I sat there on the bench waiting outside the restaurant, I saw Tom and Brenda walking down from the far end of the parking lot. Brenda was smiling and laughing, and Tom was, too; I knew if Tom was smiling and laughing that they probably weren’t talking about cats! Just then I saw Nancy get out of her car, though her car hid her from their view. She walked out from behind her car and began to walk toward the restaurant.

Brenda must have shouted to her. Nancy abruptly stopped, turned around, and waited for them to catch up to her. They all began to walk together; as they walked, I couldn't help but look at them all and smile.

Sarah had not arrived yet, but as Nancy, Brenda, and Tom walked, they epitomized “Love Walks In.” Then strangely, as they got closer, and only because I am strangely quirky, I was reminded of the introductions to Charlie’s Angels and Monkees. The good guys were approaching me, and I knew that I was going to feel cared for and laugh my head off for the next hour.

I had discovered many things this last year. If you do love something, you can set if free, so they say, and it will come back to you. I also found that sometimes unemployment sets you free from people you love. But, these wonderful people do come back to you quite wonderfully.

While everyone was friendly and glad to see me at my new-old place of work, I felt a bit alone being the US-based technical writing department of one. Of course, I had two really good friends at my new-old work, but they obviously they weren’t in my department of one, because then I’d be a department of three! Surprisingly, the door had closed on my department last year, but it seemed this week that the Great Cat Goddess opened a window to let in new-old friendships.

I had always been friendly with Lisa, a woman who worked in the cafeteria, though now that I was back, I really looked forward to when she came to refill the kitchen refrigerator with soda, and we chatted. Over time, we discovered that she lived next-door to a woman that Brenda was friends with at her new job, and her daughter, an MP, was stationed at Bagram in Afghanistan where one of my friends was a Lieutenant Colonel in the MPs. By Thursday of this week, Lisa and I had formed a new small world together.

Yesterday afternoon, I received an email from a marketing writer I had first met when I went to a trade show our company attended; see “What Goes on in Vegas at a Trade Show, Stays with You in the Form of Blisters on Your Feet.” Anyway, like most, he had been laid off last year, and like me, he had been hired back. We chatted back and forth, and he told me that he’d stop by sometime.

I told him that I’d welcome a visit, because my only cube neighbor was a very driven and focused auditor who never said more than “Good morning” or “Good night” to me. He said, “OK, now I feel bad for you. I’ll stop by and say Hi and a few more words before I leave.” I asked, “Oh, jeez, am I that pathetic sounding?”

He was on the second floor, and I was sitting on the prestigious third floor. Like my high school cafeteria, it had long seemed that where you sat was directly related to your status in the company. Yes, I really didn’t belong on the third floor; I’m sure it’s a mistake, and they really meant for me to be working in my car in the parking lot by the dumpster!

Anyway, I told him to stop by if he had the time; if he didn’t, I told him I’d stalk him next week. We had already tried to tell each other where our cubes were located; I was by the bear that looked like a printer, and he was by the conference room named after Plymouth Rock. Being one to make light of, well, just about everything and especially about status, I added, “I hear that on the second floor you have magic shows, ceramics classes, and meerkats roam the halls freely. On the third floor, we only have old phonebooks, stale popcorn, and grumpy executives roam the halls freely.

He replied, “That’s too funny. I’ll have to check out the meerkats before they farm that out to rats on stilts.” I laughed out loud. I knew I had rediscovered a new-old friend; I then handed him a verbal friendship bracelet and said, “We should write a comedy together!”

On my first day of work, no one seemed happier to see me than Barbara, the receptionist. She is also a clown; no, she’s not a “a rude or vulgar fool. She is a professional clown!

Whenever she’d pass by me, she’d say, “There she is,” “It’s so nice to see you,” or “It’s like you never left,” when she breezed by my office earlier this week. Whenever I came back to run while still unemployed, she’d whisper, “So, do you have a job yet?” I always liked Barbara very much, but I never really got to know her that well.

In the short time I had been back, she was really the one who made me feel like I had never left. When I was grocery shopping one night this week, I went by the flower section; I perused the roses. Then it dawned on me that I really did know Barbara well, because there she was staring me right in the face in the floral department.

The next morning, I walked into the reception area. Barbara smiled as I walked over to her desk and said, “Those are beautiful!” I plunked the vase of a dozen yellow roses down on her desk, and I said, “These are for you. Thank you for making me feel so welcome and like I never left.”

She seemed surprised. She told me how beautiful they were, and then said, “Thank you!’ I said, “No, thank you, Barbara.”

When I arrived this morning, Barbara saw me and said, “Hey. I’ve got something for you.” I walked over to her desk, and she handed me a wooden red heart; it was a pin.

Totally surprised by the gesture, I said, “Thank you!” She said, “Read it.” And, I did.



After I read it out loud, she quickly said, "I like you, too!"

As I said, I have discovered many things this last year. I knew there was no going back sometimes to the way things were; however, I knew there was a way to go back and discover new things, especially friends. There was always room for friends, new and old, and “IYQ” all so very much.

Where in the World is Nathan Note: At 1:30pm, my IM blinked; it was Nathan. I didn’t know where he was and all he said in regard to that was “found Internet.” I asked him where he was, and then said that his Dad had called last night to ask me if I heard from him; I told him that I told his Dad he was okay, well, okay as Nathan ever would be. Nathan said, “Ha, ha. Sweet.”

After a five-hour bus ride through Slovakia, they had arrived in “Polska,” as Nathan referred to it, 20 minutes ago. He added that Krakow looks amazing.” I knew my time was limited, and I wouldn’t be a Mom if I didn’t ask at least one Mom-type question, which I knew I must hide under the guise of a non-Mom-type question.

I asked, “Is everything good so far? How's the beer?” He said, “It turns out I still hate beer.” Moms, try this trick question at home; I expected him to say, “The trip is fine,” and ignore the beer question, but he was a fly in my web of Motherhood!

He then said he was off to dinner. I asked if Kielbasa was tonight’s fare, and he said, “Dunno. Bye.” I typed quickly, “Bye! I love you, and I miss you so much. xoxoxxoxo” but then I saw that his IM light went dim, and I said to myself, “I love you, too.”

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Just for Today



I was at work until 7pm. Nah, they didn't have me chained to my cube; I'm just trying to catch up, because I was behind, due to no fault of my own, before I even started working there. But, believe me, I am loving it and all the people there who are loving that I'm back.

I'll see you tomorrow and Saturday. Yes, Georgie, it's another Saturday blog!